Tag Archives: feelings

Running toward love

Despite (or perhaps as evidenced by) my multitude of serial monogamous intimate relationships, I am a runner. Over the years, and after two harmful formative relationships, I have developed the beautiful capacity to check out. And, by check out I mean that I pack my bags and leave. Over the past three years, K and I […]


Am I allowed to mourn his breasts? I’m afraid that even to broach that question will label me unsupportive. Render me less than: The one who isn’t truly celebrating this day, this change. I am celebrating for him. We have been planning this day since last summer. Since our marriage. Since deciding to bring him onto […]

Cup that says "Love my" and an image of a dog

“Black Dog” Mac and Cheese

Find recipe for GF “Black Dog” Mac and Cheese below. I have a black dog. I think my black dog has followed me for most of my life; however, it’s taken until my thirties to acknowledge my constant companion for who they are and how they make me feel. Sometimes, the sheer consistency of my black […]

Dog on a snowy street during a blizzard.

On going to the less than generous spaces first

This morning my dear K came home from his third shift job just as I was leaving for work. We talked for a few minutes and ended our conversation in front of our home. A young woman, about our age, was shoveling out her car. “I think I may help this poor woman,” he said. At that […]

swirling dark water- a maelstrom

Protected: the work

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Doing it all

I sometimes wonder how I did it all. More often, I wonder what “doing it all” actually means. I was once climbing the nonprofit management ladder at a decent pace. I constantly thought about what I could do next; how to grow and fund the programs I imagined, created, implemented, and managed; how to advance […]

Protected: the pieces of love

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