Category family

Mornings, memories, muffins, and me.

Recipe for Interdependence Blueberry Muffins below Today is July 4th – a day when families and friends gather across the United States to celebrate, swim, grill, booze, and firework. In my nuclear family, there is also cornhole and, if we’re lucky, a board game or cards after the children off to bed. But honestly, it’s been […]

waiting games

This morning I dropped Bryce off at Angell Memorial for the second time in two weeks- her fourth visit in the past month. Between each visit we’ve been asked to wait and watch her symptoms- until last week when her joint taps showed abnormally high neutrophil counts in each limb tapped (15,000 in each of […]

Planning and caretaking 

In about 8 weeks we will move to Knoxville. I’m off work this week and part of next to take care of my spouse. His June 4th surgery was timed as quickly as we could book it and yet falls in a strange place; too early to help much with the pre-move and perhaps too […]

Running toward love

Despite (or perhaps as evidenced by) my multitude of serial monogamous intimate relationships, I am a runner. Over the years, and after two harmful formative relationships, I have developed the beautiful capacity to check out. And, by check out I mean that I pack my bags and leave. Over the past three years, K and I […]

#byebyeboobies

Am I allowed to mourn his breasts? I’m afraid that even to broach that question will label me unsupportive. Render me less than: The one who isn’t truly celebrating this day, this change. I am celebrating for him. We have been planning this day since last summer. Since our marriage. Since deciding to bring him onto […]

sitting in the car

I’m sitting in my car listening to country music, sipping decaf espresso, and crying because I am feeling all the feels. It took Bryson and I over an hour tonight to walk the two blocks to the MSPCA park. She was so stubborn – she wanted to play ball, but was limping so bad she […]

pushing the right button

This morning I read an amazing  blog post by Dr. Kelly Flanagan, a writer and psychologist to whom my friend Deb introduced me. His work this morning, “It’s About Time“, spoke to the difficult relationships we all share with time. I know I do. When I’m sitting behind my computer at work, staring at yet […]